I missed a pill.It's like a switch was flippedIn my brain.The clarifying lightOf the forty-watt is gone;Only the black light remains.In the stark relief-scapeThat is left my failings,Both real and perceived,Become glaringly,Almost blindingly apparent.They are all I see,They are all that's there.They are all I am. … [Read more...] about Medicated
Random Thought # 5
Was I meant to have children? Well, since I don't believe in predestination that's a useless question. I know one thing. I'm not maternal in the way some women are. There aren't enough words to describe being a mother. It really is the most wonderful and difficult thing you can do, just like they say. My children bring me so much joy; a type of joy that can't be … [Read more...] about Random Thought # 5
Random Thought #4
When I looked in the mirror tonight I recognized myself...I don't know how long it's been. All of a sudden I was like, "Oh, there you are, have you been there this whole time?" … [Read more...] about Random Thought #4
Never-Ending Battle
You've exceeded my expectationsIn reaching the potential I saw in youSo many years ago;You continue to surprise me,Amaze me.But you cannot see pastThe clouded glass that surroundsYour perception of yourself.I watch you fight the tides of darkness.I watch you get swept up and surrenderOnly to battle your way to the surface again.And I marvel at your strength.Your darkness both … [Read more...] about Never-Ending Battle
Internal Dialogue #1
Me: I want a baby.Me: You have two.Me: I know, I want another one.Me: You're crazy.Me: Still want one.Me: Let me expound on all the reasons that is a horrible idea. -Being pregnant sucks. -Marital stability. -Your body is broke. -You would need a new car. -You hate being pregnant. -Hormonal upset. -Your … [Read more...] about Internal Dialogue #1