Was I meant to have children? Well, since I don't believe in predestination that's a useless question. I know one thing. I'm not maternal in the way some women are. There aren't enough words to describe being a mother. It really is the most wonderful and difficult thing you can do, just like they say. My children bring me so much joy; a type of joy that can't be … [Read more...] about Random Thought # 5
Thoughts, Rants, and Other Ramblings
Not All Who Wander Are Lost
Random Thought #4
When I looked in the mirror tonight I recognized myself...I don't know how long it's been. All of a sudden I was like, "Oh, there you are, have you been there this whole time?" … [Read more...] about Random Thought #4
Internal Dialogue #1
Me: I want a baby.Me: You have two.Me: I know, I want another one.Me: You're crazy.Me: Still want one.Me: Let me expound on all the reasons that is a horrible idea. -Being pregnant sucks. -Marital stability. -Your body is broke. -You would need a new car. -You hate being pregnant. -Hormonal upset. -Your … [Read more...] about Internal Dialogue #1
A House Divided
Roots To stand. In one place as the world turns around me. To sink my hands into the soil year after year, embedding my roots as deeply as the trees I nurture. To build an empire of my own making on This Spot, my spot. My home, my paradise, my Eden. To feel my soul slip into the hidden crevices of this place and become both nurturer and … [Read more...] about A House Divided
Random Thought #3
Letting go of my religion was letting go of my God. My grief is that of a child for a lost parent. I begged Him to come back, to not let me go. Years later the grief is still sharp, but I do not believe He is there. … [Read more...] about Random Thought #3